Episode 3: The Meeting

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All I wanted for my birthday this year was to be close to the celestial bodies. Everyone kept asking — Goldie, what do you want? — and I kept giving them the same answer. I want to be close to them. I want to communicate with them. I want us to celebrate together.

A few days later I had a dream. I was standing before all of them — not just what's visible, but everything. Every moon, every sun, all of it. I was holding a bag, and they were handing me things out of a basket. No matter how much I filled it, the bag never got full. Different shapes, different sizes, different quantities, all going in, and there was always room for more.

Then on my actual birthday — July 14th, the day I turned 44 — I found out what it was pointing to. A Bucket alignment. All of the outer planets, sitting within four degrees of each other, on the exact day I was born into this age. Nobody told me about it beforehand. I didn't stumble on it somewhere and get the idea planted in me after the fact. I felt it before it ever showed up as something I could point to and confirm. I felt the closeness of every planet before I had a single fact to explain why.

That moment sent me somewhere. It made me think about the work Nikola Tesla put into understanding the celestial. It made me think about Akhenaten, and his whole devotion to the sun. It made me think about how none of this belongs to one generation — how it never has. As above, so below. As within, so without. You're allowed to actually use what's around you instead of feeling cut off from it, even though the world will keep telling you you're cut off.

The world wants you to believe Pluto is too far away to matter, that it has no bearing on your life at all. But Pluto is the only planet with a heart on it. Just that alone tells you something. A heart is a tether. It means Pluto is connected to something the same way your own heartbeat is connected to something.

And honestly — even if none of this were true, it would still make life more interesting. I was driving a few weeks ago, not really paying attention to the road, just talking out loud to the essence of Mercury the way I do sometimes when I need to think. I looked up. I was on Mercury Street. They'll always find a way to show you who you're connected to. They always respond. That's the same observation Tesla made, in his own language, a century ago. We are souler powered beings. There's something so beautifully un-chaotic about that.

Season 3 is a different animal entirely because of all this. Season 1 was becoming — shedding what I didn't need anymore. Season 2 I was stepping into stability, finding my footing. Season 3 is literally cooking. That's exactly what my ancestors guided me toward. Every day, part of my routine is pulling my cards, sitting with everything — every element, every essence, every ancestor who came before me.

I know I'm not crazy. I'm fully conscious. I'm also completely in love with my own reality.

And here's the thing that still gets me — my awakening in 2016 started with a message from my own future self, reaching back into that exact moment. A complete stranger, two states away, handed me a card that read: tell her I am in love with her. It hits different sitting here now, because I am in love with you too. If you want the full story behind that, it's in "I'm Not Crazy, I'm Conscious" — you'll have to come through the portal on now-won.one to get to seven4teen, where I go deeper into it.

Right now, in front of me, I keep seeing the same words surfacing — twins, field of dreams, the souler system. I see things I've already created. I see things that were created long before me. I watch it all come together, seasoned with my own flavor. I almost don't want to call it magic. It fits closer to Heka — one of the best medicines ever made.

And I have so much respect for every version of me that came before, because they made sure to leave something behind for this version to find; even a scheduled meeting that was put on the books generations ago.

Enjoy your now.