Field Notes from the Now.

Several real manifestations since the last episode — a car, a vision, a fast — and the elements behind each one.

Recipe Card

All I wanted for my birthday was to be close to the celestial bodies — then a dream, a rare alignment, and a feeling that arrived before any of it was confirmed.

A question, answered before it was finished — and the four ingredients that made it happen.

Good now, I'm sitting on my kitchen floor right now, cross-legged, surrounded by more books than I probably need open at once. Burckhardt's on my left, spine cracked in three different places because I keep going back to the same pages. There's a candle burning that I lit without really thinking about it — it just felt right — and the wax is already starting to pool unevenly on one side. I randomly got the idea to start Season 3 of the Self Series by chronicling my cooking sk

I wrote that letter to a version of my Self that did not exist 439 days ago. On October 20, 2025, she received it. So let’s use the example of me coming out of a 10 year unhealthy relationship to explain matters of the heart. The day before I found this letter to my Self, I was in a very confusing energy. I wasn’t feeling bad about leaving the relationship because my heart felt instantly lighter once the decision was made. I was feeling bad about the unknown. Leaving this rel