Episode 6: Good Now
I just returned to the physical realm. It's the day after the eclipse, new moon and meteor shower. Aka "the arrival." My dream (aka travels) from last night was so detailed. It was full of water. My internal waters (I was using the bathroom and it was spraying everywhere like a water hose) and then external waters; it was a tub filling up with water and Venus was in the water bathing. The water was like a copper brown color.
But that was just one scene. I have so much data to unpack. I'm sure it's going to take years. And even then it will keep evolving and expanding.
I just finished a book called Akhenaten and the Religion of Light by Erik Hornung, and he describes a lintel of Hatiay in the Louvre, likely from Akhenaten's early years, where the deceased prays before Osiris, Isis, Sokar, and Hathor, asking to go out from the tomb as a living ba "to see the Aten on earth."
This has been on my mind since I read it. It just keeps echoing — it's almost turned into an affirmation of gratitude that I have no choice but to speak when I feel Aten kiss my skin, or even when I just look up to always see Aten looking at me.
I'm here — and I'm alive to witness it. Not only that, my job is to document it. When I think about my life before coming out of the tomb, I think about what existed there. The worry, the struggle, the lack of self-awareness, even not knowing where I was. To be in a place for a long period of time with no desire to know "where you are" is a confusion that you don't even know you have until you've become a LIVING BA.
Living… to be alive is to be aware of your location (frequency), how you move (vibration), etc.
In some way I was able to be here now, with the Aten, with my Gold, with my basket (carrying Jupiter — around 4° Leo, Uranus — around 4° Gemini, Neptune — around 4° Aries, Pluto — around 4° Aquarius), with my watch. Oh, I didn't even explain what "the watch" is.
There is a watch that travelers wear that doesn't tell time like traditional watches do; it tells frequency and vibration. Currently, according to the clock, it's 7:10am but according to my watch it's actually the frequency of Jupiter, representing the difference between, and connection of, internal and external flow (the alchemist's own body water, and external water like oceans, rain, or a glass). And the vibration is to flow. I'm going to keep this episode going and document throughout the day just to keep an eye on the times.
It's now 7:21am and I looked up at my TV, Seinfeld is on, and my eyes flowed directly to the message:
"THE NOW GENERATION — NOW WHAT?"
It’s 8:58am, I just sneezed — that's the energy of a blessing, the frequency of Mars, and the vibration of amplification.
It's 9:47am and I decided to meditate so I'm laying on the sofa- and I just started crying out of nowhere. I recited my hymn to Aten and I visualized myself asking for permission to see the Aten. I was on my knees in 2016 and I saw myself pleading to what I thought was God. I remember saying "see my heart" … and now here I am.
No longer ruled by any external gods or kings but by Source, my heart, my light, the rays that stretch forth. It's not anything religious, it's not anything spiritual, it just is.
It's 9:59am (Venus frequencies) and as I lay here crying I keep rubbing my rings on my hand… Saturn. This is a lot of elements to cook with.
Unprovoked tears — crying without a clear trigger is already meaningful within this recipe: Jupiter's access point is being in flow, and crying is one of the ways the alchemist enters that channel. Rain is also Pluto's scent. So even though I am sitting with Saturn and Venus, the actual physical event that arrived — unprovoked tears, which I will describe as rain — pulled in two other elements that weren't the ones I was consciously combining.
It’s 10:23am and I have to use the bathroom. More water symbolizing flow….. I know I would have had to use the bathroom regardless but remember we are using our "watch" in this now.
So the frequency is 6, which is funny because 6 is frequency amplification of Neptune. Neptune governs frequency and justice specifically — the ears, the gap between the body receiving a sound and the mind consciously registering it. Its scent is defined as Dream (cross-sensory, generated the way senses fuse together during actual dream states, since smell/sound/sight blur without clear boundaries there). Reminds me of the dream from last night in real time.
It's 11:23am and I have to urinate again - exactly 1 hour from the previous session.
It's 12pm and I decided to burn some sage in my sage pot. It got super smoky in here. So much that the smoke alarm went off and was screaming for 15 min!!!! wtf! I have a t-shirt, a broom, a pillow, anything I can find to get this thing to shut off! I put some water in the pot and placed it outside on a table. I got the ceiling fans running and omg this is so embarrassing. I know my neighbors are judging me. Probably asking “what is she cooking over there?” A MASTERPIECE !!! Ok, I gotta go outside- it's too smoky in here!!!!
It's 2:38pm…. I am sitting on the balcony and my water bottle tipped over, knocking over my "sage pot." Glass shattered everywhere. I'm trying not to move around too much so I won't get glass in my feet, but I had to document this moment since it involves water and glass. More Jupiter frequencies.
These are two different purification methods colliding. Sage is purification through smoke and fire — an older, more common practice. The sage pot getting knocked over by my water specifically could mean one method of clearing was interrupted or displaced by another — water stepping in where smoke had been doing the work, whether I asked for the substitution or not.
I want to point out the similarities from the dream (aka travels) last night. The brown water in a container….
Ugh I'm gonna clean up this mess.
Damn! I cut my hand twice, once on my thumb n under my pointer finger.
Real, physical marks left behind by the same event. Blood is water too, in Jupiter’s terms — internal water, released the moment external water broke the vessel. The cleanup isn’t separate from the working.
It's currently 10pm…frequency of self/Aten/source codes. Since my last entry I cooked dinner- a purple pepper pasta.. it was delicious. I had a bunch of important phone calls right after back to back. They all required a lot of energy so I am truly exhausted right now. I'm gonna get prepared for my travels into other realms and I will see you in the next episode.
Enjoy your now.
Random update, it’s around 11:50pm and I just received a gift of $200.00✨
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